Though never officially diagnosed, I always believed I was a bit ADHD. Growing up I was the kid who fidgeted constantly. I would tap my hands while reading a book, watching tv, etc... I moved around when talking on the phone and could never sit still for long. As a kid I was called hyper...as an adult, annoying!
I just always seemed to have "nervous energy" and was in constant
motion. I talked a mile a minute and could have given an auctioneer
a run for his money. For those who have taken the True Colors test,
I am a high Orange!
"Slow down", was something I heard a lot as a child. Well, ok--I
heard that as an adult as well.
When I preached I would walk around constantly and talk as fast as I
One friend talked to me about using concentrated movement when I
spoke. I tried to apply it with limited success. A management
course I was in the last couple years taught me a lot about
personality types, etc... It helped a bit. Then I had a "high speed
crash" and my life has never been the same.
A little over a year and a half ago I had a concussion--my 6th--and
it left me altered in some ways. Mostly in my speech and the speed
of my responses. I have been forced to slow down when I talk or
else I stumble over my words more. Sarah says that my speed now is
normal for most people but for me it feels as though I am swimming
through molasses! Yet this slower time has allowed me to process
more what is happening around me. Suddenly all of the stuff I have
been hearing the last couple years is jelling together. The
concentrated movement, the personality stuff and the concussion have
all combined to make a ....new Rick in some ways.
I am more contemplative, more aware, more reflective and at times a
bit more emotional than I used to be. The old "speedy" me crops up
from time to time but when it does, I usually say something
silly....like pointing at a snowman picture and repeatedly calling
it Santa Claus or telling my daughter to "have good", when she is
going to a friends house, instead of "have fun."
However, I take comfort in 2 verses. They have taken on new meaning
to me. One is found in Ephesians 2:10, "For we are his workmanship,
created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared
beforehand, that we should walk in them." The other is found in 2
Corinthians 5:17 and says, "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is
a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come."
I am aware that my behavior and the way I interact with others has
changed somewhat. I am also aware that, as we go deeper with God
and press into Him more, He changes us as well. I believe that He
has used this concussion in a way that allows me to be more
dependent on Him. I am trusting that the change He is bringing
runs deeper than how I operate post-concussion.
Many want to change things in the new year, but the challenge is to
let God be the one to work the change in us.