Chickles and Peese
It has been 1 year since my last concussion. It was not my 1st (or 2nd or 3rd or you get the point)...but hopefully it will be my last.
I held out hope that the symptoms from this last concussion would pass away completely. I remember the concussion I had a few years back left me unable to remember words like "eggs" for a few days. It eventually eased and I went back to normal. However, I know now that concussions build one upon another and even a mild concussion can leave you with a...mental limp.
Which is where I stand today.
The first month after my concussion was pretty rough. I slept a lot, tired easily and jumbled words and names. My wife later said that at times I was like a zombie. I was responsive but really, really mellow. I suffered from headaches and was unable to read or focus for long or on anything in particular.
Months passed, as did a majority, but not all, of the symptoms. It has been a journey that has on one hand frustrated me to no end, and on the other, left us laughing.
For example, when company came over recently, instead of offering them a plate of sliced pickles and cheese, I offered them chickles and peese. A friend who works with brain injured individuals told me that what I am experiencing is a form of mental fatigue. In the evening, when I get tired, my words will still jumble around. My reading time at one sitting has been reduced and I will occasionally say the opposite of what I mean, or insert a completely random word when telling a story. My short term memory is spotty at times and after a taxing time mentally at work, I find myself napping more.
I have found comfort in these days through the Word of God. I particularly like Galatians 5:22-23 which says, "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control.."
I have always been a bit impatient and this season of my life is teaching me the value of waiting. Through all of this my peace is growing as well. I am in a new season in my life, and only God knows where He will take me next. I look forward to the continuing adventure!
Whether it is illness, injury, unemployment, or another situation, we may at some time in our lives find our pace needs to change, and we are challenged by new limits. It is then that we may truly see that our security and identity lie in Christ, not our own abilities.